One Life, Do Something

went 1B wit Janet and WanJuan..
just gai gai lidat..a small small celebration for WanJuan bday which fall on 12.12.09..
she bac Tawau dy so make it 1month earlier celebration..
1B had a somekind program or wat le..
is bout AIDS HIV..
it talks bout experience of some1 who might infected by AIDS or ppl who gone thru a harsh life..
I tink it is a world tour mayb..
KL got this exhibition le..cuz I got see KL written in d poster..
if u guys got d chance must take a look and experience wat those kid experienced..







L.I.F.E
what LIFE means??
stay alive in d way u're now??
Love Is For Everyone
will this be better for every1 when we apply L.I.F.E in our LIFE..

useless

I read for dayss yet useless..
d ques come out..
'I read that..I read that!!!'
another minute..looking at d paper with a blank mind..
simply answer..goreng saje la..
d answer I wrote..totally different with what lecturer teach...aaarrgghhh
but I think those answer..kinda acceptable la..
hope lect accept it le..plx plx..haih..

read for it so many days dy but end up cant answer it..
so does it mean I shudn't read anymore..jux let it b??

Fast Fast Listen-Slow Slow Talk

how to improve ur communication skill??
we must fast fast listen slow slow talk..lol..
tat's my class in church for 2weeks..
hmm..kinda lazy wana explain everything
but in these lessons..
I learned lot..

listen
I listened to wat ppl wana say,
dun interrupt or cut in when ppl talk
pay attention when somebody talk is wat v rily must hav as a student

talk
I shudn't mengumpat ppl
I rily like mengumpat..lik2 talk bout others
when I wana express my feeling, e.g I dislike some1
I will tell lot ppl
roommate, frenssssssss...
it consider mengumpat le..
is not good..so v shud stop it
especially back stabbing
though I din do tat..

hmm..if u ask me am I a christian?
I rily hav2 ask myself tat ques for several timesssss
I cant answer tat ques actualy..
stil blur blur floating somewhere middle of d sea..
because a complicated religion background
til now stil cant stick to 1 religion
rily hope within this few years in Sabah I can figure out
which is d best religion for me..

does God rily speak to us?
izit some ppl can hear wat God said?
how God show he is here?
can this be prove and see by my eyes?
or all just exist because we believe?

silly ques come from stupid mind..
make up my mind faster le..hhmmpphh...

life

sudenli many thing flash bac in my mind..
sad..happy..sweet..bitter..sour..spicy..everything..
miss every1 so much as 1by1 leaving..separating..study abroad..job and so on..
someday..future..u might dun recognize who am i or i 4get who are u..
will this happen? buddies end up stranger..
or we will keep in contact..till d day v marry and u'll attend for tat..
till our child grow up and had their bday party..
i do hope our friendship will last forever..
we have new frens..our new gang..but..
d old frens d old gang will keep in our mind? i hope it will alwax keep in our heart..
though v might separating thousand milesssss but i hope i can feel u're nex to me..
mayb u will say u miss me..in msn, phone, sms, facebook, watever
but do u rily mean it? or it jux a social phrase 'i miss u so much'
it might a social phrase but i love to hear tat..jux drop by say hi will make me feel better..
saying ur life is boring misery without me..it might a lie..or some stupid sentence pop out..
but it make me feel better..mayb i naive i blif tat too...
somehow..if ur life is better without me..u are so happy without me..so enjoy..and u say ur life is misery and boring without me..i feel damn weird..
i might sad if i noe that im not tat important in ur life though u said how important am i..how u miss me..
i so weird..what the hell im talking bout..watever..life is lidat..human is 'fan zin'...
watever...

saw lolipops and remind me how I was been cherished, pampered..so sweet yet follow by sour and bitter..at 1st d lolipops is so sweet..so delicous but after too much of it..realize that not all lolipop i love it..there are some flavors that i rily dislike..and when i eat those flavor which not my favorite, it taste diferent..bitter mayb? too sweet as wel? i lik sour food..too sweet is jux not my style..but not everybody lik sour food and can tahan d sourness which i lik..bears not my toys..gals like it but..not all gals lik tat..im d minority..yet when somebody giv me sure feel bit happy i guess..because some1 treated me so nice..of cuz feel happy..hope those moments will jux stay forever..but time stil tic tok tic tok moving and things will change..what had past is gone..think bac might remind us how wonderful d life..or end up with disasters..i hope i could only remember those sweet memories..but sad memories is there with d sweet as well because..if there is no any bad memory there wont be any nice memory because thr's no comparison..thanx for giving me those memories..those are enuf for me to keep it in my mind forever because that memories made who am i now..and it remind me i was loved by some1..

SIng k~~~!!!!

its been while I din sing dy la..
I wan sing ar~!!!!!
but everytime aso cant make it..
tis busy tat busy..
when Im workin they're damn free til can sing..
when I'm not working they're so busy til cant make it..
haih..why tis kind of thing happen wo..
I rily rily wana sing le..rily long long time din sing dy le..
I wan sing ar~~!!!!!!
alwax stay home make me wana sing more..damn..

Sad..

u tink u're not worth we change something jux for u..
u tink we cant give up something jux to hav u with us..
u tink those nice places can compare wit u..
u tink u're cool cuz u chose to let it go..
well...for me..u're totally wrong~!!! damn stupid damn fucking wrong..wat u chose is a damn fucking big mistake..
u're worth enuf for us to change plan..
u're more than a fren but u tink fren jux so so..of cuz family 1st..i dun deny tat..but..wat can i say..
u might not alwax join us..u might feel abondone or being neglected..
but u stil our best fren...when thr's no chance to hang out we und tat..we din blame u..
wats wrong if we change plan jux bcux of u...wats d prob..i dun see thr's a prob we change everything jux bcuz of u..
mayb u tink without u d plan will go well too..d plan wil b nice aso..
but do u ever tink tat..if u are thr d plan will b better..d plan will b d best..
mayb we not tat important in ur life..but for me..
u're so important..u're so meaningful to me..until d moment i rily feel fed up..
mayb i cant get d feel i used to feel it from u..it seems going away..far from me..
i duno why sudenli i duwan talk2 u...i so tired talking with u..
now i only got tat feel..and i dun lik d feeling.. i hope it'll go away from my heart soon..

FRIENDS

Saturday- February 07, 2008

Noon went Chua's house..he will depart on d nex day, Sunday 10.45pm..its a gathering cause I met LeeYee, Sara, ChiYuen, J-mie, Kitty, Keat, San, Json, Aaron, Leon, & CheeYun..we jux sit and chat there..with d own group..so actualy, I dont tink that its kinda farewell for Chua because I dont chat with him much..anyway..I stil meet up and talk something with Chua rite..so its ok..

Peggy house again..haha..this CNY alwax go Peggy's house and this makes us can enter and out from her house easily as we like..d open house is ..er..cool..manay of her relatives, friends, colleage, mayb her dad business partner..

what I feel weird is..KarKit were there too..with his gf..haha..but ok la..cause we're stil friends rite..actualy he shud join us more..bringing his gf, huihui..this can improve our friendship..not bad not bad..Json, Aaron, Leon, Yvonne, Janice, Nevin, Terenz & Oscar..Ej while lo..

Ej's house got open house too..after Peggy house then Ej's house lo..I loves my life..damn enjoy it..haha..alwax full with plans..Julian, Nevin, Terenz, Oscar, Jingle, Kf, Wk, Peggy, MayLing (ej's gf), Jackie (duno how2 spell, kf's gf/fren??!!)..

As usual, hang out with this gang sure drink..I rily appreciate my friends..I loves all of them la..mayb not all la...but..we cant use d period we noe each other to estimate, to explain how deep our feeling, how strong is our friendship..

Peggy join our us after graduate f5 but we stil can hang out alwax..Terenz also..though last time we din rily talk in skol but now..we can hang out alwax dy..mayb its true as he said, ppl change, menatlity change, some of us can click den v can hang out..compare to those they usually hang out, I am more fren wit them dy..totally unexpected..

I am worry someday I wil lose this bunch of frens..I duwan lose any of them..not even 1..few tears drop when they discussed things that damn scary..hate they argue, hate they talk loudly, hate when some1 sudenli left..but, this is wat true frens, argue because wan d best for u, left sudenli but nex day wil come bac with smiling face..

I love my frens..I wont 4get them..I will love them, remember them til d day I dead..!!

FuCKinG Idi0t BaStarD !!!

today is my 1st day working at Isetan, KLCC..Is been a tiring day..damn tiring..fucking tired..stand whole day..for 10hours..damn damn damn fucking tired..I rily x tahan la..tot wana help mom duwan she so suffer..mana tau..I din help out much..she stil tat suffer..haha..too bad..

bac home..facing d fucking idiot bastard -y2j- = my bro..damn fucking asshole la him..morning I called him ask him to hang all those cloths..he say 'Eemm' (he is sleeping) ..den when nite mom called him again he say 'Got call meh..?!! where got~~!!' tat fucking asshole din even notice it..fine..so mom ask him hang it after d call, but when we reached home, he said, 'cloths haven wash yet~~!!!' padahal d cloths had been put in d bucket for 1nites~~!! he din notice tat..

when i reached home..he wana use d car..tot he goin out for yumcha wit his frens or wat..who noes..d pc is stil on, and tis is not d 1st time he left d house witout turn off d pc..I called and ask 'mana lu pergi?' and wat I get from him is, 'Wangsa Maju'..he is fetching his damn gf bac home..

I think he spend d whole day at home..tats why he din notice d bucket of cloths..and he wait mom just to send her bac..plx la..u dun hav car plx ask ur gf bac home earlier la..macam mana datang macam mana balik la..waste mom's petrol..not urs..d gf aso x tau fikir lo...wat time now and duwan bac home yet..shud bac home earlier if dun hav car~~!! fine..mayb I just hav d uneasy feeling bout 'them' cuz im so tired..mayb fetching her bac is wat a bf shud do..but..duno..duno wat can I say anymore..

we working outside so suffer..so tired and u hanging out wit ur fucking gf in d house looking d photos, movies mayb..and I rily wonder wat they doing in my house or d room when thr's nobody ard..!! stupid idiot bastard..I just hate him cuz he din rily tink bout mom..din rily tink how suffer is her how tough is her job being a mom and working outside..

anyway..I just hope tat tis stupid idiot fucking asshole know how tired are we..how tough working outside, being a mom..I duwana scold him or lecture him because he is grown up..and he shud tink of it..even I hope his gf tink bout it too..if she is a nice goof gf, she shouldnt gives trouble to her bf~~!!

Bad Day~~!!!

I did something which had made d whole world bad mood (tink so)..I think im over smart and busybody..omg..I duno ma..I tot I can help out..who noes wo..this is my fault..ok..I admit it and I accept if she wana scold me..she just angry and I tink it makes everyody (seniors) bad mood mayb of d complain..duno..and she seems scold d whole world..if wana scold or angry den scold on me la..why she seems lik hate every1..

If she rily cant control her temper..her eq damn sux..old lady..grr...if wana scold, wana melepaskan geram den come to me..dun make every1 suffer..I even can quit d job if u duwan see me..den I can lepas diri dy..good idea aso le..I no need work here dy and can go for a higher pay job den everybody happy lo..hahahah

I tought this week will be a happy week because I start my monday with a nice dimsum breakfast with nevin..den nite choiei called me because its been a long time we din chat dy..den tues end d date damn fast..mana tau..today wed..a sadday..it just d 2nd week of my job..if this prob cant settle, or mayb tat damn aunty cant 4giv it..I rily duno how am I gonna survive in this harsh situation..!!!!!!!!

anyway..dun care la..I sure can tahan it..sinz I aso dun rily fren yet with them..if I wana quit den it'll be nice..hahaha..if she continue her emo la..if everything ok den it'll be nice..hope everything is ok, go smooth..oh god..please make everything bac2 normal..haha...

1st Kids Kindergarten

I started my new job as a kindergarten helper on monday, 05 Jan 2008

1 word can describe my job

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TIRED~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

work from 7.30am til 6.00pm

is damn tiring job..d 1st 2days I reach home hav my dinner den went to sleep dy..cuz I x tahan..

my schedule.. >>

7.30am - reach thr wipe table prepare toys for 23budakzz

8.00am - budakz start their class, play toys with them, alwax go wee wee (wonder how many water they drank)

9.00am - hav2 keep those toys, wipe table again, prepare food for them, 'choo choo' train (toilet time)

9.40am - class time, everyday aso sing song, den colouring

10.30am - budakzz balik but not me, daycare time

11.00am - bath those budakzz

12.00pm - lunch time with those budakzz aso,

1.00pm - class time with 13budakzz

2.00pm - 'choo choo' train again before nap time,'tam' they sleep, i manage to sleep 30mins average

3.30pm - wake up, prepare tea for primary budakzz

4.00pm - class with primary budakzz, std 1,3,5,&6

5.30pm - wait their parents pick them up

6.15pm - balik..finally

this is wat I've done for the whole week..damn tired..because hav2 layan those budak..especially d 1st 2days when they stil not used to d environment..everyday cry cry cry~~~ wonder aren't they tired crying d whole day..morning and noon..

I am a teacher helper at d morning..a daycare helper at noon, known as 'lai ma'..a tuition teacher in d evenin..and a pig at nite when i reach home..haha..

but there is stil come cute budakzz in my class.. 4ceri..and some very very cute budakzz in daycare..

• Chong Keng Wang : " I wan home~~wait mommy bac, daddy bac, bring ah wang home~~"
  # every minute repeat d same thing..aiyoyo..x tahan him la..he keep repeat d same thing, sudenli cry and repeat again his 'golden phrase' den he ok..he cry saying 'duwan sik fan' but he stil eat when u put near to his mouth..tis guys damn funny and bit handsome le..
ah Wang - watching Tom&Jerry..x tahan him dy..


• Ng Wei Ling # she stick with me everytime..lik a daughter of mine..damn stuborn too..bit lik suk yu..when others kids stick with me she wil sad den jealous..wonder wat in her mind..



• Joelle Soo # good gal..my favourite gal..she smart..mayb cuz she been thr since 3yrs old..listen to wat teacher said..understanding..pretty..



• Chloe # good gal aso..small size cili padi..every morning will cry look for mommy but aftre while ok dy..quite talkative, same class with Joelle since 3epal..



• Zhong Qin # a good bro..take k her sis al d time..but getting bit naughty now..yet a smart boy..once he said ' give me 5minutes ah~~ later gor gor come bac' ..he wana 'tam' his sis, he said so..

Rou2 & Zhong Qin

• Xin Rou aka Rou Rou # alwax follw wat her gor gor do..she is a smart gal..3yrs old ni but she noe lot things..she wil sleep by herself..dont rily cry lot..mayb zhong qin is with her..



• Constantine Nicholas duno wat # he got 3 nice name al in once..he is '7 sing zai'..quite smart..stubborn aso..alwax cry cry cry at d morning and 2days..now getting better and he so cute today..ppl ask him to sleep he say 'wait' showing d sign to d daycare teacher..he is just 3yrs old ar~~!!! btw, his dad kinda 'yeng'..hehe



• Stephen Tee # he getting good..he dont cry on d 3rd day..wonder wat his parents did to brain wash him..haha..



• Xiao Thong # naughty gal..but kinda smart..she noes how2 lie just to chec out her lil bro..alwax fight wit Wei Ling..and I do heard they say ' I duwan fren with u!! '

actually there are much more I can talk bout those budakzz..ming han & ming hui..damn talkative..Chuan Hng a slow slow boy..Yan Yi a quiet yet good gal..Veronica same name wit me..Abigail a fair gal..well, I just love them when they are cute and listen wat we said..hahahaahhahah

I'm Single but not available yet

I prefer single life..
nobody kacau..
nobody cares who u goin out latte nite..
no need tink frens or bf more important..hahhaa..
no need tink I loves my frens more or bf more..because..I alwax loves my frens more than bf..I can confirm that~~!! (^.^)
so now I can plan and do whatever I wan..hehe..

btw..I cant sign in messenger~~!!!!!!!!!
I cant chat with u guys la..why??!!!!!!!
how come..
and I hardly visit some page due to duno wat security certificate...apa itu..??!!
somebody plx help..~~!!!

Problems

Problems around me..

hate it..

many things I have to make desicion..

many things that I have to choose..

many things which I need to do but I cant do it..

STPM just around the corner

and I still relax here..

watching the time pass..

I hate myself..

hate being this way..

I've been ask myself..

Am I doing the right thing now..??

Am I made the right decision..??

can somebody answer me..??!!!

well..

seems like there is nobody can help

I have to solve the problems by myself

destiny is in my hand

my life is control by me

none of them can decide what I want can I do and what should I do

I have to learn

I have to grow up

I'm 19 now

I'm not a kid anymore

stop being so childish

and do what should I do!!!!!!

STPM

Promise myself will study hard after Raya holiday..
but after Raya..d whole week I busy chatting busy talking in class..
busy goin out as well..busy watching tv busy on9..sleeping d whole nite..

in a week i went to TS for 3times..
-tues with siawwei
-fri with waihow watched a stupid boring show *flying of dead living*
-sat wit ewon miko zakee edmund then waihow mok they al..watched *the house bunny* nice show..not bad..funny as well..

everyday stay in class chat chat talk talk gossip..
hate it..
others always study and prepare for STPM but I stil relax..enjoy my life..OMG..
I should do that..study~~!!!

friday class had a gathering at Tan Cha Ok..not bad..
actually..it stil d same inside class..got their own gang talking..
who know nite ce ewon bh pm go out yc..same place again..
is ce who need ewon they al to accompany her..haha..
meet an old fren ma..which bh's secondary school fren..haha

saturday went to BP's house for jamuan Hari Raya..
aiyo..stupid la..they use toilet water to serve us...
they make orange juice..those syrup mix with toilet water..yucks..
but if I dunno I stil will drink it..so nvm la..

after that went to TS meet ewon miko..
long time didnt meet miko..she getting leng lui..
and at least v talk more than last time..haha..


today is Sunday...
after today..
I MUST start new life..
I MUST STUDY...
is a MUST...
PROMISE...~~~!!!!!!

Watch Ur Mouth~~!!

Well,

When u're talking..please beware of what coming out of ur mouth..

Sometimes when u talking something but u didnt realize that u're not suppose say it out!!!

Or beware who is beside u when u're gossip-ing..

U might be feel happy..exciting when gossip-ing..

but..

How would the person u talking behind will feel..??

Respect each other is very important..

If wana gossip..

Always check out is there any1 who cant be trusted around..

if there is any..NEVER gossip~~!!!!!

and

very

very

very

important is..

Always think before speak it out...think with the BIG brain..

Today we had open a discussion in class again..haha..Our topic of the day is..:

If a person ask..

" Do have gf / bf ? "

What will u answer..?? YES or NO

I found out that guy are usually will say NO...or maybe they will only answer YES if asked by friend or some1 more close..

But dont they think if they answer NO..this will not respect their partner!!!

anyway...its just a simple topic we had discuss today..^^ ( wailoon, wanhoong had join us for d discussion ) this kind of chit chat is much more better than purposely organise a gathering..that's what I feel.. ^^ .. no offense..haha...

oh ya..I totally forget 1very very important part..hehe..

Our beloved kc..stood up and confess..He admitted he had gf in class..where almost al of our class member were there..he said..

"saya dipaksa untuk mengakui bahawa saya mempunyai teman wanita"....

walao...he is damn brave enough!!!! I was totally shock when he did that..applause..

Love

Sudenlly feel hope that I can be loved. Wonder why?? Maybe everyone around me is couple, maybe I'm too obsses in Taiwanese drama (it Started With A Kiss 2), maybe I've got nothing to do, mayb I'm desperate to get a bf.

Taiwanese drama always sweet. They can love freely. If I can experience some part inside the drama I think it'll be very fun..wakakaka..

My dear friends who had couple..especially those who blur blur..Hope all of u get the best couple ever and will get all the happiness.

Well, maybe after today I cant on9 again~~ Headache~~ aiks aiks~~ Wonder should I terminate maxis broadband and wait for streamyx or I just continue to use maxis broadband and terminate streamyx!!!!!!!!!!!

This few days we had some discussion or we call it 'Sex Education' (SE). It just a fwe of us who had the SE class when teacher is not around. Our teacher for SE is KC and student are myself, sw, py, pm, mc. We had discussed many thing, it's all very useful (dont think we are dirty minded). There is a very interesting question:

If a transexual man-to-female, does 'she' have period? can 'she' be pregnant and give birth if

given some kind of medicine ect.?

This world is full of mysterious. Well, some said in 2012 is the Judgement Day. Do u believe that? If the world will demolish in year 2012, then I cant be able to do many thing. I am just 23years old and I have to demolish together with the world?? Oh God.. 23years old it just the beginning of my life, the point that bring me to another stage. I havent rich, havent marry, havent travel to other country and so ooonnnn~~~~~

But we cant fight with the destiny that God gave. I might just die after i wrote this, I will never know what will happen next. So each of us should appreciate what we had done and glad that we stil can wake up and see the faces we loved, do things we like.

Whats going on??!!

Sichuan earthquake killed LOTZZZzzzzzSSssss.....Dr.M resign from UMNO..!!!! What's going on...??!!! Sichuan had earthquake which killed...then Malaysia's politic want to create an earthquake as well..?? I dont really know whats going on.. Isn't the GOD want to PUNISH human..??!! Is there really another flood or what which will destroy every sing living thing..?? And the world reform again..???
Is it too much crime, too violence, which only dead can repay the sin..??!!! I do believe that one day, the world will demolish everything..another me will reborn in this world after dont know how many billions of years later...

I had give up my exam..!! I dont even bother about it anymore now. Even if I'll get sucks result or what so ever. For me is not a BIG deal anymore....
This is NOT me...the ME had disappear..I really want ME back..I hate the ME now...I used to concern bout my result..I'll put a lot effort in my exam, in my studies..but now...everything seems like nothing for me..what's going on with ME....please..someone please help me to find back the ME i used to be..please lead me..I need help~~!!!!!

By the way..yesterday night,19May 2008, Wesak Day, around 11pm, my house area...do feel the earthquake..it just a slightly shake..many people run down from their house..while they are busy and anxious running,..I sitting at my living enjoy my tv show..haha..I wonder why they so anxious...if they didn't run down from the flat, I wouldn't realize the 'shake' thing..Am I too free and easy. dont bother it or just they over react..?? haha..