Repeat over again, again and AGAIN!

My second time to 'Zero to Hero'
I went many events and i had listen to a same speaker for several times
I know what are the topic mainly about
But...

Do i know how to say it?
If I really can say it out, my stories is up to date? Or outdated?
Do I bringing out the same feeling as I first time listen to it?

I used to complain why have to go events
Is the same events every week...
And is the same people who will be there too
Basically the slide contents is exactly same too..

But 1 thing I realize is...

Although is same thing but the speaker might be different..
Even if the speaker is same but everytime there will have some extra information or story which never been exposed..
And even all are same..the slide contents, the speaker, the feeling by speaker
There must be a different thing that touched your heart
There will have a thing that inspired you most

If this event u quite blur, go again until u understand it completely
Repeat doing the same thing and evaluate ownselves then improve ourselves

Well..if had attended many...alot events and still blur or didnt get any insight
Is either u didnt open up your heart to learn to accept from the people, the world
Or...
You have not move forward, didnt develop at all

This is what I learnt this time
Everytime go an event, everytime I got a question
Eventually it will be answered by duno who!! Magical...
And is the same thing but I got different feeling, different idea about it and got insight

Therefore..as we know..
We never stop learning until the day we go into grave
Dont complain so much..dont ask so much
Get the answer from event!!!

If u think eventS didnt help, then think and evaluate

Where were you back then, where are you now, and where will you be..

Were you standing at that point?
Standing at that point or have step forward?
If you didnt take a step further will you reach your destination? Is not when will reach is will you reach?!

One Life, Do Something

went 1B wit Janet and WanJuan..
just gai gai lidat..a small small celebration for WanJuan bday which fall on 12.12.09..
she bac Tawau dy so make it 1month earlier celebration..
1B had a somekind program or wat le..
is bout AIDS HIV..
it talks bout experience of some1 who might infected by AIDS or ppl who gone thru a harsh life..
I tink it is a world tour mayb..
KL got this exhibition le..cuz I got see KL written in d poster..
if u guys got d chance must take a look and experience wat those kid experienced..







L.I.F.E
what LIFE means??
stay alive in d way u're now??
Love Is For Everyone
will this be better for every1 when we apply L.I.F.E in our LIFE..

White Head Till Old

specially dedicated to dai bou a.k.a Py Ong..
she had married!!! congratzzzz..
she is my 1st fren so marry..not bad le..
so sweet..hope she happily ever after..

I wish I can marry early too..haha..
den if got child aso dun rily have d gap..
if can live longer mayb can be great grandma..wah..syok ma..haha..
well...dreaming stil very early for me..

anyway...
once again
Congratzz dai bou..

1st Class Honor!!!!

2010 budget stated that if students grad wit 1st Class Honor, den their PTPTN loan will become scholarship!!!!!!!
so my dear uni frens....and those who taking loan from PTPTN..plx plx study hard..to achieve 1st class...den v no ned pay bac d loan!!!! hahahha
hence..to giv lot lot lot support and encourage for myself...that's wat I did..hehe

tat's my study table..messy hor..d sunsilk shampoo not tat good campare with d orange..

well..not focus my study table actualy..focus wat I wrote...

ta da.....so gambate every1...

study study study study!!!!!!!!!!

Fast Fast Listen-Slow Slow Talk

how to improve ur communication skill??
we must fast fast listen slow slow talk..lol..
tat's my class in church for 2weeks..
hmm..kinda lazy wana explain everything
but in these lessons..
I learned lot..

listen
I listened to wat ppl wana say,
dun interrupt or cut in when ppl talk
pay attention when somebody talk is wat v rily must hav as a student

talk
I shudn't mengumpat ppl
I rily like mengumpat..lik2 talk bout others
when I wana express my feeling, e.g I dislike some1
I will tell lot ppl
roommate, frenssssssss...
it consider mengumpat le..
is not good..so v shud stop it
especially back stabbing
though I din do tat..

hmm..if u ask me am I a christian?
I rily hav2 ask myself tat ques for several timesssss
I cant answer tat ques actualy..
stil blur blur floating somewhere middle of d sea..
because a complicated religion background
til now stil cant stick to 1 religion
rily hope within this few years in Sabah I can figure out
which is d best religion for me..

does God rily speak to us?
izit some ppl can hear wat God said?
how God show he is here?
can this be prove and see by my eyes?
or all just exist because we believe?

silly ques come from stupid mind..
make up my mind faster le..hhmmpphh...

BadDay

today really a bad bad day..noe why..because..
day b4 this noon I was so happy because I got ptptn..print everything for d saksi sign den submit it and waiting my $$..
den..yday nite..sudenli..eh..how come thr written 2yrs for my course? got prob so hav2 write a form lidat..den can settle rite..mana tau..
d guy told me that I fill in d wrong info..and I hav2 batal it 1st b4 I apply..guess wat info I wrong..
is my course..wonder why from 3yrs it write only 2yrs?? because...I ter-type SARJANA!!!!! ni la..berlagak pandai..my level is only sarjana MUDA..pandai pandai go master when I am stil in degree...omg..
so now..I hav2 batal it and apply again..guess wat..batal it need ard a month to process means..tis sem..no $$ la..grrr..sem2 mayb only can settle everything..hate it..hate it hate it..

no $$..no ptptn..print everything for my ptptn = waste ink, paper, $$$$..and now cant get any $$...aarrgghh...
its very very kesian dy..kinda bad day dy rite..and evenin..1more thing happen!!!!!!
I duno do wat wit d IE8..and duno wats going on..
I cant open my IE anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
when I cant open my IE means I cant on9 because I cant login my ID to access...no msn and so on..
d IE icon cant appear..it just..turn to those weird icon when thr's a prog tat cant be support..
so..today is really a bad bad day for me..
no ptptn..no IE...cant on9..imagine that..my life will be so so sucks..
and I am so damn broke now..so pk..never been so pk..and now..d IE..haih..

apa apa saje la..

well..since its been a long long time i din upload din post anything..

now..i'll vomit everything out...

1st- on9..kesian budak ni x dpt on9 slalu..

I cant on9 as I alwax did when I stil enjoyin my life in KL..

during those time in KL..I only cant on9 for week in a month mayb..

my days in Sabah..I can only on9 for week for d whole month..haih..kesian..kelian..

thus I cant on9 and blog and cant tell d whole world what i'm doing all these days..haih..

lets start now..b4 its too late..

Finally i step on d Kota Kinabalu street..on..last sunday I tink..

wana buy book..but end up..jux lepak-ing at KK..

check out where is Central Point (CP), Warisan Plaza izit..tink so..

CP

Central Point is just like Sg.Wang..or last time d duno wat shopping center we went at JB..

den d 1Borneo I usually go is like..Pavilion mayb..high class mall lo..

den d bus station where we stop when reach KK is just lik Puduraya..lot bus thr le..d main bus station lo..and they got van called.. 'bus mini'..is a VAN..swt..

'Puduraya'

duno wat..haha

what else I wana burst out here..

got a lot of friends..but stil haven got a kaki yet..where are those fellar who can sot wit me..

cas&chloe got lot classes..different time..so we seldom meet up..yet stil meet up and sot while..luckily..

I brought along my blue nail color along..for sure..I use it la..but..

my course penyelaras say..we shud present our best appearance, professional appearance..

'lelaki..tolong warnakan kembali rambut kamu tu..HITAM..' omg..luckily din say bout gals..

once she said so..i hide my fingers..why..because..

quite nice hor..ahaha

I very very hardworking going church now..though i cant find any church I seen in KL..

but nvm le..stil d same rite? I duno..hahaha..I hope is d same..

I got lot assignment..but stil haven start doing it..

nex week gonna hand up dy..die rite..I hate that..

I duno how2 do and tat make me lazy to do it..

APA style la..this a that la..poster for assignment..wat the hell??!! gggrrrr...

now suppose doing my assignment..search what nervous system main componen..specific area in consultation..body tattoo in psychology point of view..my life span theories..so on la..lot more..

few pages website I've open..what's that..

msn..hotmail..facebook..tvboxnow..blog..yea..I'm hopeless..

btw..I joined sukan perahu = dragon boat and canoe..nice..

every saturday i can go to d nice beach and have fun..tats my ko-ko..

MY BOAT!!

thanx god..evey weekend I can eat outside..right after church..at least I can hav some BABI food...haha

lets talk bout roommates..did I mention b4??

2sabahan, 1christian (kadazan) 1muslim (labuan)..1sarawakian chinese(christian)..

they're nice..al senior..al spks..haahaha..budak psiko..haha

i duno wat to spilt out dy..lot but..now..my brain..stuck..tat's all I tink..cincai le..

UMS system down!!!

hate ums~~!! useless ums megalab..omfg...!!!!!!!!!! very very geram...angry..pissed offf...~~!!!
nvm..sabar..sabar..4get it..dun so angry of those stupid fellars...
everybody wake damn early..go queue for courses registration..reach thr..everybody stuck at d door waiting it to open..
when it open..ask us Q..each school..they shud mention it earlier so others wont so miserable or wat..!!!
well...q for whole day...enter library..den say system down..please come bac after 2.30pm..
2.30pm reached..door open..again..q-ing prob..no q at al..jux seerbu~~~~
2nd went in..2nd floor..ready to register..again..system down..please bac home and do it ur own..!!
they shud tel us tat v can do it ourselves..damnit...hate it..i just hate it..
waste my time..whole day q-ing for nothing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but..1 thing so so suprise~~!!
i met some1..long lost fellar..
BAHA..YES..BAHARUDDIN~~~..stil rmb? our form monitor durin f2...^^
he is 2nd yr student dy le..senior..bangga la dia..ahahahahaa...
hope can see him oftenly..rapatkan hubungan..ahahhahahah

and melvin foong..photographer from the agency i tink..not sure..
took my pic..ahahhha...i never capture by those photographer lo..i mean public la..
even school magazine aso less...so i kinda happy...hahah..perasan..apa nak buat..lol.. XD

this post jux cincai ni...some update..wana lepask geram because of..duno whose fault..kelam-kabut..
dun care le..i wana sleep le..99 world.. ^^

UMS

today..Friday, 19June09

I click www.mohe.gov.my

and key in everything that needed..and a word pop out..

TAHNIAH!!!!

so..wats in ur mind now..hehe..mohe is gov website and d word tahniah shows?? hehe

I got offer from University Malaysia Sabah a.k.a UMS

located at KotaKinabalu..I also duno whr izit located..

my course...Psikologi Kaunseling..

why in BM le..I hope d whole course wont use bm lo..BI is d best.. ^^

I had2 register at Sabah on 28June09, which means 1week from now my life in KL

but..I'm going Malacca on 22-24..3days wasted..jux lidat..

many ppl I haven say bye..haven meet..my relatives, aunts,uncle, couz they al..FRIENDSSSS..

many thing I haven do yet..trip...Perhentian, M.O.S, Poppy..my 21st Bday..haih.. *sob*

wat2 do..gov is lidat..everything jux last minute and u hav2 settle it..hate it..damn..

anyway..date me ASAP if u wan..friday nite, 26June09 kena book dy..haha..

DATE ME b4 I go Sabah~~!!!!

Life Is Unpredictable

thats's what every said..when heard d news..

today got d news tat sara liew's mom had pass away..
sad to hear that..though we're not close yet when u hear d news..
feel sad for sara..her mom still young lo..
and I think she must so so damn sad when got d news because its all of a sudden..
life is so unpredictable is what every1 can say..

this is kinda bad..
many ppl die..wk's dad..
man gu father in law..
sara's mom..
among all this..I think d most tough to accept is sara..
others might have prepare and ready for it because they knew it..
but..sara..is so sudden and it hurts..for sure it hurt a lot more compare d others..

I cant follow them to show respect on wed because I'm goin off kampar..
anyway..I hope she can g thru all this with bravery and courage..
time heals..hope so..

wondering~~

am I annoying??

am I irritating??

am I busybody..damn kepoh so 8??

am I stupid??

am I lazy??

am I alwax find an excuse to cover up some mistake or my bad attitude??

am I naive??

am I a good, nice friend??

am I a good daughter??

am I a good sis??

am I jual mahal??

those I really cant answer it..any1 can help me..mayb I know d answer but I wana confirm it..or what do u think bout me..haih..stupid post huh..I aso duno why feel so..but..jux got d feel wana post tis out..hhaha
any comment?? leave it in d comment box..chat box aso can but u cant write long wo..hahaha..

Lifeless

what I've been doing for these 2months??
stay home..lepak..go out while..go some1 house over9 few days den bac home..
not working..if got part time is ok..but when thr's no part time..omg..wana die..

well..I think..spending spree is coming soon..
when every1 stop working..b4 July lidat..all plan for trip..
omg..where can I find those $$$$$$$$..
I shud earn more while it stil early of may..
who noe..lepak lepak..time flies...terbang..

nvm le..d result of uni application will release soon..
3rd week of June..so mayb 19 lidat..
it jux 2weeks to go..so..
lepak 2weeks more than work hard lo..

today lepak with syi again..den ml while..
really duno what to do dy..
find peggy chat while..
sorry syan..ffk..sorry..

God Bless...

she drank..she back home late..and now she complaining..keep complain her work..crying..thinking bad things..d worst scenario..hate it..hate d way she act..why cant she just take it easy..she claim she is sick..will going body check-up tomorrow..haven check anything yet but worry bout thingS dy..why cant she just go for check-up and wait for results..even anything happen, d worst come to worst..I stil think thr is chances to cure rite..ok..*touch wood* even she diagnose a disease and have a short period of life..she stil have2 face it rite..*touch wood*..ok..I know..she worry..she worry us..me & bro..what will happen if she really got somekind of cancer..and who going to take care of us..who going to raise us..because we totally an orphan..dad died since primary standard 2 or 3..and she been work really hard to earn and make sure we got what we want and give us d best..she suffer all d time while we enjoy having fun with frens..she work when I hang sing k..she do house chores when I go nite market..she clean up or prepare things for work when I go clubbing..she earn when I spend..I know I'm being a bad daughter..I'm so useless..she just wana find some1 and say out everything that upset her in job, life or anything..but both of us just dont really care and cant help much..we just listen and give some opinion which she keep reject..she duwan work anymore..she so suffer working with that bitch..she wana quit..but when she think of us..she cant do it..she cant get such pay outside where she has no any qualification..she's old..she duwan me to work because she want I have a bright future..she want I study more so i can get a good job..she duwan I waste my lifetime because I have to work now..she duwan bro stop his studies and go to work..every single thing she do just because of us..she dun really enjoy her life..she didnt go trip..she didnt go eat nice food..she didnt buy expensive thing..she save all her money for us..I duno what can I do anymore..i think I really need a job..dont care whatever job mayb..but..it just 1month to know whether I been approve in any local U..she going check-up tomorrow..hope everything will gonna b ok..if something wrong have to stay for 3nites..I hope everything ok..maybe all these is just another test from God..not for her is for us..or I can just say bad luck surrounding us..if it is another test from God..i really duno what to do..till now I stil dont have a belief yet..its time to think...its time to have a belief as it is better if I got somekind of 'kei tok'..

Trap~~

nice lamp

this few days..trap at Puchong..Nilam Puri Condo
not rily trap..it stay thr for a week dy I tink..
stay new house..hehe..condominium..got swimming pool al tat..
stay thr..not bad le..air-cond..hope its my house..but too bad..aunt's house..
she just move in on Friday..
wed go 2gu house den friday onwards til today at foong gu house..
thurs morning..4am lidat received call from ej said wk's dad passed away..haih..
sad to hear tat..tot it wont happen tis fast..

so thursday nite hang out with lily..
she drive her 2nd hand white kenari fetch me bac home den drop by something..
I drive to kwong tung yi san thr meet up wk and 'chor ye' lidat..
its kinda late for lily but not me..
no choice la..i bring her out sure hav2 bring her bac summor her dad sure damn worry her..
mayb..might dislike me cuz I bring her out..'bawa jahat anak dia'
bac Puchong and prepare nex day foong gu move in new house..

friday move in..pack everything.help out..
eve ml hui called..say sing k all tat..
bastard la..when im at kl duwan find me..busy al tat..when im not ard..they cal me out..
but when they say willingly come here so far find me I very happy..hehe
unfortunately..I hav2 help out my aunt..den I dun hav key is a dificulty to hang out with them..
summor aunt plan to hav steamboat with lily as well..

I promised with them earlier so no choice..
I hav2 giv up my frens..though I miss them so much..haih..
and I wana watch wolverin lo..haih..grr..

sat=wesak day=2gu bday..
went duno wat association eat vegetarian..not rily tasty but nvm la..is d heart..haha
nite hav a small celebration wit 2gu, ta gu family..jux a dinner wit Tiramisu...
eat vegetarian at Biao Mei Restaurant..aiyo..not nice la..mahal pulak tu..

sunday..
2 Lamma came and do some pray things lidat..
blessing d new house..for safety things lidat la..
and now I having a big big huge problem..

HOW AM I WANA BAC HOME..??!!!

I dun hav car..and its damn mafan ask foong gu fetch me..cuz its so far..
and mafan la after all..den mayb kenng gu fetch lo..
cuz now her family is here..visiting lidat..
mayb ask them tumpang me bac lo..
eric is here since morning..he looks boring so jux hang out here..
tot he got any plan mana tau..lepak here wit me..ahahha...

bye..haha

Camping~~

Labour Day.. 1st May
going camping at Tanjung Malim..
rover activity la..damn long din go camp dy..
kinda excited..hehe
but..kinda while din do any exercise and activity as well..
so..bit scare cant catch up later..
noe la..so fat..sure cant do many aktivit lasak den cant tahan...damn
anyway..I stil cant wait for d camp..hehe
so starting tml til sunday..u guys cant find me dy le..
I'm going camp..

and I wish 1st Kids Sport Day will go smoothly..
go well..everything run as they planned..
suppose go thr and visit my many many darlingssss...
but because of this camp I cant go..
so, I hope everything goes well..all of them enjoy d Sport Day..
ms.yap miss all of u guys er... T-T

Boring~~

this few days stay home..
boil Bleach..but d unluckily is once I finish load and ready to watch..
my stupid old damn pc hang~~!!!!
so I hav2 load again which I'm sick of it..
so change my target on boil dvd..hehe..

I wan eat sushi....!!!!
since d sushi king promotion ended..
why not lets hav a try at Sakae Sushi..
3pm-6pm..ard rm30/pax..buffet..
come come..lets go..any1 interested..??!!

2nd, I wan sing k~~!!!!
its been a long time I enter k-room..
but I noe lately they al got sing k activity,
so they dun rily wana join tat..
and everybody is complainng pk~~~

3rd, this is so sudenli..
I wana eat 'yau char kuai' with 'hong tau sui'...
duno why jux sudenli wana eat it..
den heard from susan tat hui wana eat 'guo chang' which remind me of tat..
and today is sweet guo chang..I wan eat la..haih..

so..this few days wat I've done..hmm..
nothing..eat slep watch..tats all..
oh ya..i swept and mop d floor..finally..hahaha

Fast & Furious

well..
last wed after pan mee at hang shen's mom thr..
we went movie at leisure mall..
Fast & Furious
its a damn damn damn nice show..u wont regret contribute to gsc fo this show

another show i watched last fri is..
He just not that into you
not bad..is a show bout love which is very true bout guys..
guys are bad..tats why peggy say someday she might b a lesbian..
and this show take 2hours..not bad..

sat had lunch wit ml & san
ampang yong tau foo..not bad..
after tat went JJ, maluri
I wana buy a blouse cuz my blouse looks..old..
but I cant find any nice blouse..
when I found it..out of size..damn..
so end up bac home with empthy hands..

oh..I bump wit waikit and shaowan
they're in car and saw me..so ngam..hehe...yau yuen

my sat not ended so simple..hehe
nite went out 'din-per' (dinner/supper) with ml at 118
plan Left4Dead after that..hahah
play til 3am lidat...damn
promise wana bac early cuz nex day got scout..
who noes..end up wit dim sum at Jalan Ipoh
lepak til 4am ar~~!!!!!
thanx to peggy cuz she miss me lot til duwan let me bac..
and supporting cast, ml & leon

btw..tat nite ewei so kesian..
haih..it make me wana study at kampar..haha
ewei got eye infection and it come so sudenli..
she she ask her damn housemate accompany but..
tat fellar..reject keep her company cuz wana study for monday test~~!! damn..hate her
luckily kwei is thr to help her..
if not..I rily duno wat wil happen to ewei..

my dear ewei..
plx do take k urself as thr's not alwax nice ppl wit u..
and to d damn housemate..
I hope that u dun get sick..
cuz if u fall sick, i'm sure my dear angel ewei will take k of u so good..
til den u wil feel very very shameful cuz u din reach out a hand when she ned it..
My blessing to u, damn housemate~~

Thomson Reuters

1st day working in Thomson Reuters..
an international company too..
as receptionist again for 2days..today and coming monday..
compare to Mitsui, this company..kinda small..
mayb they got another branch..dunno..
but d faci is better..thr's chocolate, drinks..haha..
because it is smaller..so I dont rily hav d privacy here..d boss jux behind of me..
and thr's no 'beep' sound when d boss come out..not lik Mitsui..haha

d work is much more to do..
courier..send and receive, answer call, mail..
at Mitsui, I only answering call and receive letters..
I've learn how2 send something at least..

and..I can on9 check mails, msn..haha
well..I can do tat at Mitsui too..
d monitor stil haven fix so I cant on9..
btw, I'm blogging wit office's pc..haha..
and..

I wana hav a break with KitKat now..haha.. bye.. xp

Old Memories

yday yik sent me few pics..

I was do suprise he send me those pics..

I had no idea I've took such pic..haha..

its a fact that i'm so cute, so adorable..since I'm a kid...haahah...

me & yik

da pak
jong*grandma*man gu*yoong gu*da pak liong
leong*ee*kuen*ken*yik

those mention + keng gu & gu jeong

this is few years ago..when man gu marry~~!!!! can c d bride..is my man gu..^^

look for me..hehe

Receptionist

1st, 2nd & 3rd April 2009

work in Grand Millennium Hotel Office Block
which is Mitsui & Co (Asia Pasific) as Receptionist..
this job..omg..kinda boring but ok aso la..
I stil prefer work in kindergarten though its much more tired working thr..
but at least..I can feel tat im doing something..
I miss each of every1 in 1st Kids...arrrggghhh..

btw..the toilet is damn damn high-tech..
mayb its an international company..or Japan..not sure bout it..
but..d toilet got a machine..i tink its popular in Japan..
it can wash ur buttock..dry it..haha..cool..

last day

my job..

2nd day

d toilet..wit a hightec stuff..hehe

3rd day

this few days go work aso wana make up..
my face..omg..teruk dy le..
but ok la..can wear leng leng go work..haha
but..if long term sure I'll borin cuz duno wat2 wear..haha

I wana find a job ar..an office job..any recommend...??