I wish to cry NOW!

there was a junior of mine so so happy when he going back to uni
and he is so enjoy of his uni life..
enjoy it more than he is at hometown ALOT...

for me..is nightmare
was happy when going back uni
not for this sem
I am so busy especially with kampung sife thing
many things have to do
and many things undone yet!

I am so so scare..
should have use the word terrifying of the program coming soon
can I do all that?
can we make this success?
I know we can but..can we do it like nicely perfect?
are there still many more obstacles waiting us there?

I have no idea and I am so so worry now!
can I just let this go and give up?
answer I think = CANNOT!

I wish to cry now..I do
it just tensed up..stressed up
everything seems like on the track
but late than d date it should be

I wish I am in my own room (not with roommates)
or my house because nobody will be at the living room at this hour
so I can CRY OUT LOUD
is been quite a time I didn't cry
is time to cry isn't it..
I do wish I can cry now.. ='(
God please give me the strength to do all these things
please take my fears and my worries away
with You I can do the best I ever could
please stay with me ok.
我靠着那加给我力量的 凡事都能做！