Achiever

things always happens not the way you wish

maybe this is what God wants 

because He thinks things you wish is not things you need

I am always in dilemma situation

I want it and I own it

now when I owned it, I feel it is not enough

and I try to achieve what I want

but because of my laziness and my dont know how to explain attitude

I will forget then ignore it

this semester is really a growing up semester for me

many things happened and still happens

many things I am in the learning process of how to handle it

I made a decision that I think I am so so stupid by decide so

because I have no courage to do what my mind ask me to

because I have no courage to face it alone all by myself

I owned it now

yet, am I will own it forever?

am I really getting what I got now or it just a dream?

a sweet dream that keeps me from awake

a sweet dream that I want to stay asleep and not coming back to the reality

I wish I can do what I want so freely

I wish I can achieve what I want easily

 I wish I can keep what I owned now

the matter, can I?

It is not easy to achieve although I got it already somehow