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lately i kinda easily emo..maybe because im a woman (lame excuse). sometimes i dont know what im thinking about..things seems small even i do feel so sometimes but for me is a serious matter also but not for you or the others. you dont take it serious but i do. you think it just a small matter not important but not for me. it not always that simple as you think. or all this while you never thought of it nor take it serious as i do. when you dont take it serious i cant do anything and the only thing that i can do is ignore it and let it be. i pitiful aint i? and i always dont really appreciate things when i got. i am such a greedy person. when i dont get it i want it so much. i can do things that i will never do (not all of course) in order to get it. i do appreciate it and take care of it but only a while, after that, i will put it aside and forget it until i remember i got such a thing. not only things but human same too. realize myself dont really want to social or know new friends. lazy to introduce myself, lazy to smile always. prefer staying all alone by myself. am i sick? become a pessimistic person? i wish i can be the one i used to be the person that happy go lucky. now i only know avoid it. am useless. is not late to realize now and is not late to change now but when i will start to change? is a matter or time.. (avoiding again). such an emo post will usually appear during late night but this time at this hour kinda weird yet feel better now. good thing to do. back to work and think how to earn some money!