praying hard

uncle got cancer and they knew it last november..
diagnosed is almost the last stage. and today doc told us is already last stage
and they cant do anything more. the only thing to do is just make him feel less suffer less painful
this is so heartbroken when i heard it. and seeing she cry makes me think of daddy
i dont know is good or not when daddy died at my young age where i have no idea what happening
maybe not no idea but compare with the age she is..this totally killing me
knowing her own daddy sick and going to die is better or worst than me?
it might be better because they can spend more time, quality time with him starting now
but worst because you have to pretend and know he have to suffer the sickness so do them trying to hide how sad they are

at that moment even this moment i cant practice what i learned
i cant use what i got..is this means i have no skill?
i cant take out my empathy and i dont know what to say to make them feel better
so what i've been doing for almost 3 years time
rushing assignment, attending lectures and tutorials but now i cant even do something that relating to it
i only have theories and knowledge and know how to say about it but i cant use it
or i dont even have the knowledge? i only use it to do assignments and exams then  i delete it from me
such useless and wasting of time...

anyway, for you who read this..
please pray for my uncle who got cancer and seems pretty suffer right now. thanks.